I almost didn’t write this one. I almost went back to find a happy post to reblog, but then I decided to just go ahead and do it. I’m very much in a “What’s the point?” mood these days.
I’m writing this knowing that on a good day 20 or so people will read it. I sometimes think that some day I will be one of those people with thousands of followers without a worry about people actually reading what I write. In reality, I know that I will never have the time nor the talent to write stuff that thousands of people will want to read. So, I wonder this morning “What’s the point?” Why do this if I know no one cares? Why not spend the time I spend doing this reading a book or watching TV?
I still spend time looking at job opportunities in my field. If the right job pops up, I apply. On occasion, I get asked to come in for an interview. What never happens is an actual job offer. I still spend time thinking about advancing in my career. I’ve spent time working with the state association, so people in the field know me. Yet, here I am 23 years in to my career and still at the same level I was when I started. So I wonder “What’s the point?” Why look and apply if it will only lead to more rejection? Wouldn’t it be easier to just go to work, do my job, and then go home and forget about it? What’s the point in wanting more?
What;s the point in anything besides the time I spend with my family? What’s the point in doing anything outside of activities with my family? I don’t think it would really matter to anyone or anything if I just go to work, go home, and never do anything else.