What’s the Point?

I almost didn’t write this one. I almost went back to find a happy post to reblog, but then I decided to just go ahead and do it. I’m very much in a “What’s the point?” mood these days.

I’m writing this knowing that on a good day 20 or so people will read it. I sometimes think that some day I will be one of those people with thousands of followers without a worry about people actually reading what I write. In reality, I know that I will never have the time nor the talent to write stuff that thousands of people will want to read. So, I wonder this morning “What’s the point?” Why do this if I know no one cares? Why not spend the time I spend doing this reading a book or watching TV?

I still spend time looking at job opportunities in my field.  If the right job pops up, I apply. On occasion, I get asked to come in for an interview. What never happens is an actual job offer. I still spend time thinking about advancing in my career. I’ve spent time working with the state association, so people in the field know me. Yet, here I am 23 years in to my career and still at the same level I was when I started. So I wonder “What’s the point?” Why look and apply if it will only lead to more rejection? Wouldn’t it be easier to just go to work, do my job, and then go home and forget about it?  What’s the point in wanting more?

What;s the point in anything besides the time I spend with my family? What’s the point in doing anything outside of activities with my family? I don’t think it would really matter to anyone or anything if I just go to work, go home, and never do anything else.

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13 Comments

  1. I think we all have days where we feel like what’s the point? For your blog – I would say don’t worry too much about the numbers. You have readers who care about what you write and that’s amazing – it doesn’t mater if it’s 20 or 20,000 – your words matter to someone.

    Spending time with family and friends and making memories is definitely the point. Our time here on Earth is limited so make the most of it.

    If you’re in a career rut how about reaching out to someone in a similar field as you for some guidance and pointers on how to progress further?

    It’s ok to have a what’s the point day or two but trying to focus on the positives is always a good start to help pull you back out of it. It helps me anyway x

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  2. Completely reasonable to wonder “what’s the point”. I would miss your blog, but also will completely understand if you choose to stop writing. For your peace of mind, I hope you have few days that you feel this way.

    As for the career, I have nothing to offer as I am in the same boat. Stuck where I am and counting days til retirement. I did come to the conclusion, not long ago, that I really don’t want to move up or away for my career and have made peace with the decision. It has helped, to a degree, in the day-to-day grind.

    Hang in there. I hope you keep blogging, it is a bright spot in my day.

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  3. Totally feel ya, Tater… You are not alone. Oh, the war stories I could tell you over a beer, about my 6 years of helping to run a tiny web-based startup company — and how for almost my entire last 4 years with the business, it devolved into a “What’s the point” kind of endeavor for me… You are ahead of where I was, in that you are at least seeking something with more of a point, so I think you won’t waste 4 years in the status quo like I did! Hang in there!

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  4. It’s pretty much the same with my blog too. Some days (after I’ve posted) it’s relatively popular, others I hit 20 views. I miss the WordPress Community Pool as that was great for gaining readers and followers. The only true way I’ve found of gaining followers is by reaching out, which is out of my comfort zone, but it does help with the reading and comments as you then build a relationship of sorts with other bloggers.

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  5. Start small! 🙂 I’ve joined a blogging group, too, not sure how much it has done for me though. I have a Facebook page. Through promotion on there I pick up around 5 followers a week – I don’t think it supports my blog to the same extent.

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  6. Ha! Okay…well this was a fun read 🙂 Nope. Hello, “resident pain in the neck, butt kicker blogger come for a visit” me here…let’s be honest.. We all would love the admiration for our writing and the ability to have those outstanding blogs that go viral and that everyone returns to but that is just not in the cards for most of us. If we are blogging it has to be first and foremost because we are enjoying the creative aspect of running a blog and of just writing our guts out as best we can. I have been blogging for about a year now and for the majority of that time the only person reading my blogs has been me and only me. I am my biggest and most ardent fan, seriously. I must re-read my own stuff a hundred times each. I am crazy about what I write. I think I’m a riot. I am likely not that funny because very few people get my sense of humor. I have a bit of an evil streak and still find that a pie in the face type humor is the best. Oddly, I think the three stooges are annoying. It’s better when someone does not see the pie in the face coming 🙂 anyway, I deviate. Blog for you. blog because you love what you write, blog to keep your mind from falling victim to Alzheimers(this is too a word…damn spellchecker)…blog for any reason other than to have a massive following. There is always going to be someone smarter, better looking, richer…you are not in a competition against anyone other than yourself. Ok, rant over. Buck up! p.s. family is great but kids go off and do their own thing and we become an accessory to their lives. Enjoy them when they are little…after that stage it’s all just filler.

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