The three people who responded to my poll said I should post it so here is the first thing I wrote this morning. It’s dark and dreary outside. It will likely be this way for a couple of days. We have less daylight every day. I’m not getting enough sleep. There are various reasons for … More Dreary
I have had my laptop open for an hour. I’ve started and trashed several posts. I can’t seem to get the words out. I am only reading it fits and starts. It could be the book. It could be me. It could be both. I can’t settle my mind enough to do more than barely … More The Funk Continues
I’ve written before about what I call sudden onset melancholy. It is also one of the band names on my list. Those days when I’m just sad without a firm reason for the sadness. On those days, like today, it’s really hard to do much more than sit on the couch under a blanket and … More It’s Hard Sometimes
I discuss my struggle to write, read and even watch some TV right now. … More Brain Block
Yesterday, my therapist gave me a list of ways you can deal with distressing emotions until they pass. I was on board for al of them but one. Luckily, my therapist agreed. This way was comparison. There were two different types of comparison. One is to compare it to a time when you were in … More On Comparative Suffering
As I mentioned in a post last week, I started to hit lows in my mood midweek. The lows continued as the week went on, Any high I got from my volunteer work Thursday morning was wiped out by frustration during a situation Thursday afternoon. My lows in regards to my writing increased when the … More The Urge to Give Up
I feel like I started the week out on a high. Most of my therapy session Monday was focused on my successes from the week. I submitted work to a place that was not my own blog. I expect nothing from it, but it was a step. I started my volunteer doing weekly deliveries for … More On the Roller Coaster
I am now over a month past my last day at my job. I didn’t have to spend a lot of time adjusting to things at first. Two days after my last day both of my kids came home for the holidays. We then had Christmas and New Year’s to distract me. My son went … More Adjustment Anxiety
This time of year is always a little hard for me. The holidays are over. It’s cold. While the days are getting longer, it is still dark relatively early. I go from having my kids around back to the empty nest. There’s not a lot to look forward to until the days are longer and … More Fighting the Midwinter/Pandemic Blues
A while back I wrote about how my sleep pattern was off after a trip and how much I needed sleep. I’m now having the exact opposite problem. Now that I’m not staying up too late watching baseball, I tend to go up to my bedroom earlier than normal. I generally try to read for … More Too Much Sleep
