I never make any official resolutions. I feel like mine would be the same every year and I would feel like a failure each year when I have to keep making the same ones over and over again.
While not making official resolutions, I do have a few things I want to focus on for the year.
Read with no goals in mind
I did set a Goodreads reading goal. I set the same one as last year. I do it out of habit and because I like using Goodreads to track my reading. I want to stop caring about how many books I read and go back to just enjoying my reading. I want to get lost in books again. I want to find new favorites. I want to get out of my reading funk. I just want to read because I love reading.
On the road again
If all goes as planned, we will go to Egypt in May while my wife attends here conference that is supposed to be in person again for the first time in 2019. It’s great to have a possible trip already planned for me. I also want to take a solo trip to Kentucky in the spring and maybe again in the fall. I want to get back to NYC soon. I might try to get the family to go with me to Philadelphia for at least a day trip. I want to see the sunrise at the beach. I spend way too much time alone in my house. It’s time to get out.
I’ve done some things this year to get out there and meet people. I’m working at the barn. I joined a community book club. It’s a good start. It’s not enough. I like the barn work and I like the people there, but I feel like I’m not part of the group. I’m just some guy who volunteers there. I’m valued when I am there to do work and forgotten when I drive away. I like the book club, but I don’t see myself ever hanging out with any of them outside of the one hour a week. I don’t feel a sense of belonging at my church. It’s time to make more effort to find where I fit or admit I don’t fit anywhere.
I make no money writing on WordPress. I make just enough on Medium to pay for my membership fee with a couple of bucks left over. Everything else I do is volunteer work. I need to either accept this and be OK with it until I start drawing retirement or find a way to make money. I know that writing is not going to be a money-making avenue for me. I still think about substitute teaching. I could go back to a part-time job at a library. I like the sub idea more because it still gives me some control over my time and I would be guaranteed holidays and summers off. I still hesitate, though. I’m afraid I will suck and/or hate it and it’s easier to just not take the risk.
Put the screen down
This is closer to a real resolution. It’s just too easy to scroll mindlessly through Tik Tok, Facebook, Twitter, etc than to focus on reading. I spend way too much time looking at a screen and accomplishing nothing. If I am spending that much time online, I might as well become a Tik Tok star. It can’t be that hard, right?
So, that is where my head is at going into the new year. How about you?