I have attempted to write a longer post about this several times and can’t get it right. So, here is an abbreviated version just to get the thoughts out of my head.
While watching the Nashville New Year’s Eve party on TV while at my mother-in-law’s house, I felt homesick for the me I could have and maybe should have been.
I have spent so much of my life trying to be who I think everyone else wants me to be. I saw myself as I thought others saw me and always felt like I was a failure. I’ve spent my life trying to change that. Instead of being happy to be myself I tried to become someone else.
So, as I head into the new year if I have a resolution it is to stop trying to be someone I’m not. As I keep moving toward my next phase in life I need to make sure I am doing it for myself and not for others.
I’ve spent years trying to be who others want me to be. It’s time to be who I want to be.