I’ve written before about what I call sudden onset melancholy. It is also one of the band names on my list. Those days when I’m just sad without a firm reason for the sadness. On those days, like today, it’s really hard to do much more than sit on the couch under a blanket and do as little as possible. One of those days when my head is full of
What’s the point?
No one cares anyway.
Those days when my head is full of the fact that I have very few people in my circle. When my head tells me if I disappeared I could count the people who would care on one hand and possibly have fingers left over.
Those days when I feel invisible.
Those days when I feel expendable.
Those days when I feel useless.
Those days when I need to give myself a break but instead still do things because I don’t expect anyone to understand how I feel.
Today is a hard day. Hopefully, tomorrow will be better.