I know I’ve mentioned here before that sometimes I have days where I wake up with a lingering sense of unease or impending doom. When that happens, it is very hard to do much that takes any level of brain power. Today is one of those days. I woke up with a lingering anxiety. It’s hard for me to focus on doing anything more than mindless tasks today. It was a chore just to write those sentences. I can’t quite place what is fueling the anxiety, I can think of a couple of possible culprits.
My wife is driving to her mom’s house in Kentucky today. On the day when all the news is about issues with gas shortages in places. She is bad about waiting until the last minute to get gas. I might be anxious about her running out of gas on the trip.
It might be the things that are bringing back memories of the bad times from lockdown last year. My daughter is home(by choice this time to see her best friend who is home), Hogan is speaking about Covid stuff this afternoon, and I still don’t leave the house much. It seems like 2020 again.
It could be some anxiety about the return to normal and the possibility of a different level of risk tolerance from each member of the family. How do you navigate that?
It could be my mom’s birthday and Mother’s day over the weekend dredging up the grief of losing her.
It could be a dream I don’t remember from last night.
It could be nothing but my brain deciding it’s time to be worried and stressed with no trigger.
I think this will be a day of watching movies on the couch.