Readers of this space will know that I have struggled recently with coping with life in general. I’ve always had periods where I struggled with anxiety and worry. I’ve had down moods, but I always just coped with it, powered through and moved on. The last few years, I’ve found it harder and harder to do this. A series of life events, I think, lead to this.
I lost my mom to cancer.
I changed jobs soon after that.
My youngest went away to college and I had to learn to deal with an empty nest.
I learned soon enough that the job change was a mistake.
The toxic environment became more and more toxic.
Then came the pandemic and I lost pretty much everything I still liked about work.
The toxicity increased.
I reached a breaking point. My first hope was that I would convince my wife that I should quit my job and that would help. It became clear that would not happen, but something needed to change. I still think things would improve exponentially if I removed myself from that environment, but at the very least I need help coping with it. So, I decided I would finally take the step of seeking therapy.
It was hard to make the call. It was even harder when I kept being told that they had no openings. but I could be on a waiting list. I gave up and told my wife I was giving up on it and I would just cope on my own. She did not give up and texted me a practice to call. They did have an opening and I have my first appointment Wednesday.
Don’t be like me. You might be able to power through and cope, but it isn’t healthy. If I had talked to someone when my anxiety and depression started to get bad I would be in a much better place right now. It shouldn’t take a pandemic to admit you need help. If you need to talk to someone, make the call. I did.
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I am so glad!!! Making the call and getting started often feels like the hardest thing to do. Hang in there **virtual hug**
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I’m glad you succeeded in finding a therapist. And I’m also glad your wife helped. Don’t expect a big change immediately. Baby steps. You and your therapist will have to get to know each other, but mostly they will have to get to know you.
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