A Cluttered Mind

For the past week I have been dealing with a mind cluttered with pessimistic and negative thoughts. I can’t seem to shake them. The first couple of days of this they kept me awake at night. I’m finally sleeping again, but I’m still in a spiral. Since I can’t declutter my brain I have tried decluttering other things.

My email inbox at work is empty. I finally went through and deleted old emails I no longer need and sorted the ones I need to save in to folders. Now I just need to remember what folders I used. That might be a challenge. My goal is to continue to keep control of my inbox so emails I haven’t answered don’t get pushed down to the point that I forget they exist. I think I will be successful for about a month and then it will get out of control again.

I did the same for my desk. I went through all of the stuff on my desk and got rod of everything I didn’t need. I put papers in appropriate files and stored them away. I am enjoying my cleaner work environment and hope I can keep it this way.  I will likely be as successful at this as I am at the clean inbox task.

I’m hoping the uncluttered work environment will inspire my brain to unclutter itself. So far, that is not happening.  Until then I will keep listening to my really loud music to drown out the thoughts in my head.

Do you ever get in one of these funks? How do you deal with it? Any tips?

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7 Comments

  1. I find that if I have thoughts running around in my head, I have to either say them out loud or right them down (then burn them). I saw a quote once that says “Sometimes you just need to talk about something-not to get sympathy or help, but just to kill its power by allowing the truth of things to hit the air” – Karen Salmansohn. The quote struck a nerve with me because it echoed/exemplified the coping mechanism I had been using for years to survive the crap my brain can throw at me.

    In my experience, thoughts that start out small in my head can grow to the size of the Jolly Green Giant if they continue to rattle around in my brain. Don’t ask me how the JGG can fit in my skull. I don’t know how, but he can, and when he is there he stomps on everything else around, breaking perfectly good thoughts into shards of junk.

    I have found that just saying the thought out loud shrinks it back down to a reasonable size or kills it. If it isn’t something I can say to another person, I write it down, read it a couple of times then burn it.

    And, as it says on the shampoo bottle wash, rinse repeat as necessary.

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  2. Almost daily for me, I will often write a blog… in fact at one point I was having issues dealing with the idea of mortality; I was questioning to myself about wether religion is the answer.
    Sometimes just writing stuff out is handy, I hope doing this brought you some peace.

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  3. Unhelpfully, i do what youve been doing. I add more and more to the clutter until i literally pass out, but sleeping is a continual issue for me anyway. I tend to watch through comedies on netflix/etc. The stupider the better. It’s Always Sunny in Philadelphia is good and effective at blocking out stuff. I’m watching Jane the Virgin rn.

    But also I find talking to someone official really helpful. It took my dad passing away to go, I think because it was an external trigger so it wasn’t like I had to admit my own brain was messed up. I go every week, and sometimes it’s lame but other times (when i keep a list of what to talk ahout) I can unload about stuff without harassing my husband quite as much :p
    But, I think through things by going on about them and unloading on other people, so ymmv. I’m prone to a lot of self analysis already but it’s nice to have someone required to listen and provide feedback, and sometimes validation.

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  4. It is so much more easier to have a clutter free mailbox or a clutter free home as compared to a clutter free mind. Every thought adds to the clutter and we apparently have more than 50,000 thoughts a day.
    So what I have learnt is to bring ONE Thought that can overshadow all others and give me focus.

    This is an para from one of my blog posts on “letting go”
    “Rather than trying to pick up every spec of dust on the floor, get a bucket of water and pour it on the floor. Don’t worry about the dust because the water can take care of it.”

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